A Thank You Note

Something
that cannot be put into words
Just a feeling, I know
that things are moving forward
I am looking up.
At a loss to explain
the perplexity behind my eyes
at your understanding.
Nobody ever understands.
That's silly.
Right? .....right?
No....because you...you do.
You understand.
You see over and under and through
and word that has been written.
And you perceive and you wonder
and you know.
You know more of me
from days
than anyone else has known
from miles and years.
What can this even be called?
How did I even find this?
This loss for words,
it's beautiful.
I want to hold onto it.
To hold on to this light behind my eyes,
this smile,
this moment.
I want to tuck it away and remember
that not all the world will shy away
from depth and feeling.
I remember now.
I remember why I write.
I remember what I always felt as a child.
I am strong.
I am full of compassion.
I can change things if I wish to.
And my words?
My words mean something.
They are not just blank letters on a screen.
They are truths and triumphs and tragedies.
And I am very much alive
with a heartbeat that beats through all of them.
Thank you.