I Will Always Sleep With the Light On

The nightmares woke me as a child.

The cruelest things and violent scenes.

And until seven they still defiled

each night with harm inside my dreams.

I will always sleep with a light on.

I've seen the evil that exists.

This world hides the cruelest truths.

They burnt me down in endless bliss

as they corrupted all my youth.

I will always sleep with a light on.

The first time I knew I loved you

was the day I realized you'd always be

right besides me as long as I'd wish,

but always slightly out of reach.

I will always sleep with a light on.

The day I first learned to fall out of love

was days after I'd known the blade.

I watched my heart break to the floor

and everything around me fade.

I will always sleep with the light on.

The dark crept in inside my head.

I've chased it away all my time.

But still it lingers in things I've said.

Both from my mouth and here in rhyme.

I will always sleep with the light on.

I watched the daylight fade away.

The days are brighter than before.

But still each night I stop and pray

that I will see the light some more.

I will always sleep with the light on.

Stuck Between a Decision and a Feeling

Never let your heart get in the way of your head.

I told myself this over and over again.

Then the moment you walked in I forgot.

Your eyes took away everything I knew but you.

And I can't say no

to anything

you ask.

What a dangerous conundrum

to be stuck inside this fault.

I have nothing to hold to

except a hope and dream, a future.

And when that all falls away

I'll be falling still for you.

It's a weird thing to know

you'll always be just out of reach.

It's a weird feeling learning to

accept impossibilities.

But you can't ask me to overcome

the fear of being the only one

who gets shot down just by her eyes.

It's honestly not really a surprise.

I walked right in an yelled my mind.

It made you smile, but burned her ears.

It's all my fault. But even years

can't take away the things I've said.

We may not ever get along.

All day long I've tried to find a song.

But there's no words for this long of a story.

It's much too detailed for the ears.

My heart can feel the weight forever.

It still will feel it for years and years.