Hiding

There was no threat.
Nothing to be heard.
We made no sound and spoke no words.
And their mouths exhaled
the meanest things
in purple, violent, angry rings.
They choked me silent, I won't fight.
Just hide away into the night.
Day after day, so discontented.
This isn't the way I ever meant it.
Not my fault, it's really not.
But this is where I'm at
and what I've got.
When you can't leave, what do you do?
Find a way to make it through.
But if I can't, well that's okay.
I'll hide right here
from night
to day.

Somtimes, We Think Too.

If she's all alone the way she feels,
she hasn't let you know what's real.
And you wont guess by standing there
and staring.
The farther you move
the deeper she hurts.
She'll stand by you staring
until it gets past worse.
New life is a dream,
and a privlege to her.
Where were you when she needed?
Starry eyes, you ran away.
Cloudy eyed, you can't see
where she's at any day.
Sometimes she wishes she could scream
just to see if you hear.
And you'd know all her losses
through worry and fear.
The times not right,
and all her light
is gone. But yours is there.
Are you going to share it?
She doesn't think you will.
She's starting to think that
no matter how deep she sinks in
you wont notice until
she can no longer breathe.
And she's thinking she's right.
I'm thinking she's right.
I'm thinking I'm right...
But what's on your mind?

It's funny, but...

where the hell did I think I was going?
I mean...who could even last there?
We all know where we stood before
anything.
In the beginning all I had was me
and that's all I still have.
One day maybe the strangers will finally
stop and carry me.
But who am I kidding?
Suck it up kid.
The world's not falling like we thought it was.
No, it never has and never will be.
But what will be is your heart.
Wherever it is now, it's still being. Right?
So go find it and take it back.
If it was really so broken
then, well...you wouldn't be here.
But you are.
So suck it up.
And live.

Oh, Well.

If I was an activist...maybe things would be different.
Maybe I'd remember what its like to yell.
Those days we rioted like he does
until the night burned down and the stars came out.
It wasn't worth it, I know.
But at least we had a cause.
Now I guess
my causes are lost.
But what can ya do?
We're all spinning in circles, and we can't stop it.
Guess we just have to keep on blinking
like I do
and keep on walking
like I have.

How you know you've had more than enough...

The living weren't meant to walk with the dead.
But the ghost came out from where I'd left him in my head.
Just like dust on a shelf, I just left him behind.
Months like years passing quicker as every moment went by.
I never let it get in me. I never even cried.
I just moved on through life as if he'd never died.
Cause he hadn't.
But I never knew and I never could see.
All the millions of places his heart now could be.
Although it wasn't my fault, or so I've been told,
I kept with me the guilt to grow with me and get old.
And sometimes I still wonder all of what could've been.
Would it have ended in more? Or just as a friend.
I'll look up to the sky and I'll remember your heart.
From the last time we talked to the beautiful start.
Not forgotten. Not at all. And he'll always be in my head.
But we're the living now, not meant to
be walking with the dead.

I...

Can't write anymore.
Or speak or think.
No hands, no ears.
No eyes, too filled.
Too many question.
Asking, wondering.
Fleeing maybe to find
a ghost.
Once a time, moving on.
But not really.
Yes, and no.
City of black and white
Walking, dodging,
sprinting away.
No breathing.
Flying.
Will write
never again.

We're All Just Stars

The fear that comes alive inside
is brought to life in the dark of night.
Stars shining,
but we feel too small to stand.
We're spinning on an axis being spun by a hand.
You're hand, I know.
And you won't go but
the world leaves me.
And if I ever left it
would anyone stop me?
Or would they just let me quit?
Well I know that he'd follow me.
Too much a risk for me to take.
His heart too big to waste.
His hands to young
and they'll do greater things
than he knows.
Sometimes I think he's wiser than
I ever give him credit for.
But he's learned more from me
than I've learned from him.
The stars can't reach me.
But he's still a light.
And for those nighttimes I'm stuck
staring down at my feet
he pulls me back up
and says "Sis, I've got ya."
I am loved and I know it.
Even if it ever comes to just him
I can still keep on walking.
I haven't burned out yet.

This Is What Flight Looks Like

The closet monsters came back.
But they looked all different from before.
I'll scream and yell for a light but the door
is still locked and I'm locked in with them.
What if the pen that wrote my words
comes back to stab you where I stood?
And doubt fills up that things would worsen.
But who knows in these times.
We try so hard to reach the stars.
I've jumped and climbed; they're still not ours.
I used to say fear was my friend.
But no more so, I'm left to fend.
Where did you go?
I haven't heard a single word
in your direction for hours and hours.
To me that's years and you don't know.
The things I hear can't ever go.
Don't tell the wise, they aren't wise at all.
They'll throw me back there and I'll fall.
Breathing labored, I'll go on.
Just like I am. I have a song.
Somewhere inside me chilling my bones.
I'm always tired.
I'm always cold.
The sun's to bright to even look at.
The night's the only light
I can take to.
Think about life and love and all I have.
I have it all but will it last?
And sometimes wonder fills up my eyes.
That's my excuse for when I cry.
You'll read these words but not really here.
No more am I
a friend of fear.

Speculate

Tell me something I don't know.
Scream my name,
because I've never heard it.
In this box, in this city
covered in black and white.
Where's the stars when we're reaching?
We're here in the night.
And I'm running.
So far, so far,
and my lungs are giving out.
So hard, so hard.
But I'll find a way.
I'll find a way
to you.
If I have to run the rest of my life.

Is this the ending of a moment, or just a beautiful unfolding?

"Everything that I ever thought could happen,
or ever come to pass and
I wonder
If maybe,
maybe I could be
all you ever dreamed, cause you are...

Beautiful inside.
So lovely, and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you." -SafetySuit

There's no words anymore that I can say.
There's not a single star in the sky today.
There's not a love or a lifetime.
There's not a song or a rhyme
that's more beautiful
or brighter
than you.
And though I can think forever
I know there will never
be anymore words
for how much I love you.
For the way it makes me feel
to hold you in my arms
and know you're safe and real.
And even after all the I have learned.
Even if the love is never returned.
Even after all of the stars have burned
I'll still be here.
Arms open.
Always here with a hand.
I'll always love you.
I'll always catch you
wherever you land.
Be it miles or minutes
from where I am at.
I'm here for you.
I love you.
And nothings gonna change that.

Instead of Stopping, Let Me Jump This

Your love covers all, I know,
even my pain.
You'll walk with me through the fire
and stand by me in the rain.
But the way I've been walking
and running
and talking
isn't honorable in your eyes.
Lord, where am I going?
I see it in the looks of these passing faces.
We wake, and we work,
just to keep with the races.
And I choose just to breathe
but barely just to live.
I keep giving and giving
but I don't let them give.
Through all the chaos
Lord, you'll open my eyes.
To the truth and the pain
and the love and the lies.
Let me sort them all out
so I won't be the thief.
Find some answers to these questions
to bring some relief.
And let me lean on Your shoulder
cause my walking aint steady.
But help me take this leap now.
Give me faith.
Cause I'm ready.

...

"That's enough for now.
He should have never left you broken.
He should have held you."

You Don't Know.

Sometimes anymore,
I don't even know...
Why we arrive and we smile,
and we talk
then we go.
You don't know where my heart is.
I don't even know yours.
Sometimes I sit and I wonder
if you heard all the thunder
when it rained on my house.
Well, it stormed pretty hard.
And the windows all shattered.
But you don't know my heart.
We'll keep walking and smiling.
Keep talking and leaving.
Out with the old and in with the new season.
We're all running in circles.
We're all chasing the land.
You don't know where my heart is.
And I don't know where you stand.

Kaya's Life, According to Mat Kearney

Using only songs from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 25 people you like (including me). You can't use the artist I used. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My Life According to (ARTIST NAME)".



Pick Your Artist: Mat Kearney, musical poet and great guy.

Are you male or female?: "And though her age reads that she's just a young girl, the age behind her eyes shows the pained that she's swirled."

How do you feel?: "I'm caught in a moment out in the rain. Tell me there's something we can say. Help me to find a light."

Describe where you currently live: "This whole city's black and white. Tell me what is your color? Could it be the same as mine?"

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?: "Meet me in Chicago, down by the waterline. Step across the gold coast."

Your favourite form of transportation: "Car lights in the driveway. I wonder who's going, coming my way? Tomorrow we're turning down the highway."

Your best friend is: "It's undeniable how brilliant you are. In an unreliable world you shine like a star. It's unforgettable now that we've come this far."

Your favourite colour is: "Faded greens and blue street lights. There's a red fire burning from the sea up to the sky."

What is the weather like?: "Cause they all head on home in the morning. Get on gone when it's storming."

Favourite time of day: "Under stars in the dark, you'd say let's grow together as this world falls apart."

What is life to you?: " These days, a little bit longer than the last. And all of your ways, a little bit stronger than the past. And your light, found my bottle in the night. Kept me in this fight, gave me second life."

Your relationships?: "All I have is yours. And you watch my heart break a little bit more. My heart break a little bit more."

What is the best advice you have to give?: "Hold on for today. Don't worry about tomorrow. Though the rains of today seem to fall with sorrow.Let me be and we'll see this life for tomorrow."

If you could change your name, you would change it to: "Cause Annie's got to get out, before she never can." (Lol so that ones kinda a joke. =P)

Thought for the day: "And don't apologize for all the tears you've cried. You've been way too strong now for all your life..."

How I would like to die: "Alone to trust midst the rubble and dust. Humbled, it took this much time to break down and understand."

My soul's present condition: "On my knees when you call my bluff. Begging please from the edge of the ruff. And I know I've had enough, and I know it, and I know it..."

My Motto: "When all is lost, all is lef to gain. Hallelujah."

If You Fall, I'll Still Catch You. (For NH)

There was a boy that I knew.
He had a heart that could light up the world.
I still don't know if he knows
that its so.
But I do and they do. Yeah, we all know.
And his tears sometimes fell
but he still tried to smile.
Though I could see past his eyes
to every pain, every trial.
He always loved with everything that owned
but couldn't find one that loved in return.
And through is pain he somehow learned
that the world wasn't all the thought.
And for a moment
I thought we had lost
him.
He's still alive and breathing.
He's our miracle today.
All the words that he's written,
and all the words that he'll say
are inked with beauty.
Voiced in true perspective.
And if we hold him too high, well
I'm guilty of doing so.
But I know
what he's worth.
Even if he can't see.
He's got a heart ten times bigger
than the one thats in me.
And I'll stay up all night
every one of my days
if it means it'll keep beating
and he'll be okay.

That's Enough For Now.

It's not been very long now,
and you'll surely remember.
From the lights of the summer
to the nights of December.
We won't forget for a while,
but we'll hopefully learn.
You've been there when I've fallen,
and I'll help you in turn.

Woke up dazed this morning
and I prayed it wasn't true.
Before the words even reached me,
well, I already knew.
And my heart raced in anguish
cause I'm miles away.
What am I supposed to do now?
Is there anything I can say?

He will sleep cause hes scared.
And I won't be able to sleep at all.
Hoping the world will keep on turning for you.
We never wanted to see you fall.
Prayed myself back to sleep last night,
and well, God must've heard.
Cause you're alive and you're breathing.
It could've been so much worse.

I'm just glad you're alive and breathing, friend.
It could've been a whole lot worse.