Request...

When I stood in the rain
and stared at the city
I said "Bring it on. I can handle it all."
So I let the rain fall.
And flood. And flood
until my feet were stuck and I sunk
in the mud.
Now I know what I should've known
way back then.
I can't do it alone.
I need you again.
Any my brother,
I'm sorry. It was no way to stand.
My sister,
I'm so sorry. I so need your hand.
Pull me out, pull me through,
and hold me there tight.
Because all I want now is to make it alright.
I have cast all my stones off
and thrown them on your shoulders.
Time to step up my act cause
I'm so much older.
I can't do this me. I can't do this to you.
But I still can't figure out
what I have to do.
Or maybe I know and fears holding me down.
It's pinned me in the fault line
crushed by the ground.
It's so cold. Always. So cold in my world.
And the water is rising.
And it isn't surprising
that I'm drowning so fast.
But its surprising that the past
hadn't brought me right here, stranded on my knees.
I'm asking. I'm hoping. I'm begging you...please.
Figure out and remember where I was
in September.
Figure out and know
where I am now. Where I'll go
if I don't have a hand. I can't stand.
I ...can't...stand.
And can't breathe. I can't think. I can't see.
And my minds folding over
inside and now out.
I will admit that it hurts
and I'll admit I have doubt.
But I'm holding on tight to each little thread
of this life I have left. I wont be left for dead.
But my brain wants me gone
and I'm arguing back.
I know I was strong
but that was in the past.
I'm fallen now, darkened,
so tired and lost.
I should've told you but
I didn't know if your heart
would be the cost
to save me.
But I'm asking now please
I am tired and shaking.
Take my heart and save it.
It's yours for the taking.