I Am...Here

If I close my eyes, it's not there.
But I cant close my eyes.
And I'm scared.
Like a small little child,
afraid of the dark,
I am stuck here.
Alone.
Hugging my own shoulders so tightly.
I scream without sound
when I am asleep.
And in waking I walk with my steps so light
that nobody would know
how heavy my world is.
I pray every night and
every morning
that my prayers would reach your deaf ears.
Are you even listening?
Cause I'm here
and I'm lost and
I don't know why
you left me.