The Universe Collapses Inward

We always want more than this world can offer.

But I will continue to grab the stars

until my hands turn to ashes.

This is for you, not for me.

Seeing you cry breaks my heart.

Seeing you smile puts it back together.

I've been pacing for hours trying to find a way

to make everything fall into place for you.

Not for me.

All I want...

For you to be happy, and whole, and to live

the fullest and best you can

for you.

Not for me.

I thought forever ago I'd gotten past

that broken, unreciprocated love I'd found.

I know I hasn't.

But this is not for me.

The sleeplessness, lack of food, and hours spent

trying to find solutions

are all for you.

Because I love you.

I still love you more than

anyone in this world ever could.

And because of that,

even if it's not returned the same way,

I'm going to encourage every dream you have

and help you find a way to get to your goals

until you own the universe.

I will drive as far as I can

and stand besides you

in silence, if need be,

just so you know you're needed and loved

and not alone.

I will be here to listen, here to talk,

here to lend a shoulder,

and here to be friend

until my heart collapses

and my least breath is exhaled.

Because a love like this is not going to go away.

I've gotta stop trying to make it.

I've gotta keep biting my tongue

and holding back the words

so that you'll be okay.

I've gotta keep hoping that things

will just keep getting better for you.

That you'll know

that I'm always here as your best friend

and

that you'll never read this.