Trying.

There's so much to consider
and you tell me
you'll love me on my bad days
and my good days.
On my sad days
and my happy days.
But I can't put all that on you...
I've tried and now
I'm trying the wrong way.
You know somethings not right.
I know it.
They know it.
But...I haven't changed it.
Moreover
it's been worse these days.
I can feel my stomach tighten
at the thought.
And I look around and frown
at the thought of what I'm becoming.
Of course you say you'll always love me
and maybe you will.
But really
I don't wanna hurt you.
And I don't wanna be the one
to make you cry again.
I just wanna love you
and be
okay.