What are you doing?

It hit the extreme
and I never meant it.
I need leading by hand
like I'm five again,
five and twenty;
Something I never will wish
ever again.
My white, snowy wonderland
is splattered in red,
and I thought nobody would notice.
They did.
I brought the hurricanes in,
and I'm sorry if you drowned.
Never meant to hurt a single soul.
Never meant to divide mine.
And now, now I have love.
I have requited love
and redeeming love.
C'mon kid. Push your chin up.
When will you see
that you have more than enough?