Suddeness

You hold a world of wonders in your palm.
Your armor is coming off now.
But I never had any.
Instead I was stuck, scarred and bleeding.
But now that you're free...
Can you stitch me up
and make me better?
I'm healing already.
You should know
nobody else has ever been able to do that.
Nobody.
I used to stay up at night wondering
who would save me if I was the one saving them?
Nobody.
I used to think I'd be alone and lost and searching forever
for a heart to love and a hand to hold.
But I'm not.
I found you.
You walked in so abruptly that
my head couldn't adjust that fast.
And so it freaked out.
But just for a moment.
And in that moment I realized
that all the world I thought was broken to pieces
was falling back together in a million shades of light.
I am very much alive and
very much in love,
and I don't really hate myself.
I only hated what I had become.
Cold, lifeless, and without feeling.
But you're letting me feel again.
You're doing what no one else could.
You're letting me live.
I am so very alive.